good morning moment

Just here thinking about you, in the most loving sense of the phrase. And I want to tell you what I'm thinking about.

I'm just here, laying in bed, wishing you were here, and I could just run my fingers through your hair, caress your cheek, hold you, feel you, softly kiss your sleeping lips. And just lovingly look at you in my little moment of loving you. And you would only know the tip of this iceberg of emotions when you wake up and saw me smiling and looking at you, not knowing everything else you were to me when you were sleeping.

Our love still runs deeper than anything I've ever felt in my life. And these last few days, and these last few years, has been proof of that. In the way we talk (even if you're trying your hardest to deny it), I still hear it in your voice. The way you still message me, eager to tell me about your days, because you know I'm always listening to you with my full attention when we do. And in the way we make love, when you're telling me how much you love me, because you feel safe, and secured, and so well cared for when my body is wrapped protectively around yours in an intense closeness..

I won't lie, I still think about the future with you. I still don't think the story ends here. And while we're still writing, let me dream of my beautiful future with you in it. Just let me. Just let us.

The idea of a little me inside you. With your eyes, your smile I always fall for. No matter how much she would pull as hard as she ever could on her daddy's heartstrings, it's a heart that's ready to take my little girl on. I've had so much practice with her mommy. I also can't think of a Landon without us together as his mommy and daddy. I can't think of anyone else loving your mommy and daddy the way I do, and taking you back home to them.

My love has always had your best interests. It's never deceived you, or tried to lead you wrong. It's something you fell into because you know that it was a big safety net to always catch you on. You learned to trust in beautiful things inside my love. You learned to find strength with me always having your back to pick you up and push you forward. You learned that you could share your sensitive side at the end of a long day, because I'd be there, ready to love and take care of you in our home you came home to. This is what loving you is like to me. And it was the greatest choice I made choosing you to love.

You're sleeping now, and this would be me, holding you and whispering this all in your ear, cupping your face gently in my hands, and hoping that your dreaming of me and dream me is saying all of this to you. You're perfect. You're wonderful. You're everything I need in my life, and useful to me beyond all measure because you have an infinite amount of love stored for me to access.

You're loving and beautiful. And you are so mine still, beautiful baby. 

Sweet morning, my sunrise. :* <3 Good morning, my R____ baby.